Psalm 73

So, it has been almost a month since I started working here at Lake Street. For those who are just joining us, Lake Street Landscaping Supply is a landscaping supply company for contractors and homeowners who need grass seed, stone, mulch, dirt, sand, etc...
I was hired a week before I arrived in the city, by the grace of God.
We received a packet in the mail with all the information we needed for the summer including locations in the city that were hiring. Lake Street was on the list.
Since I have been planting flowers, pulling weeds, moving dirt and working outside for as long as I can remember, I immediately looked down upon the idea of working for a landscaping company.
Well, God had a different plan.
I called almost every other business in the packet and no one was interested. I even applied to Chuck-E-Cheese.
So I swallowed my pride and called lake Street.
I left a message for mark, the owner, telling him why I was going to be in the city, that is as with Campus Crusade and that i would like a job.
This was the only phone call in which I actually disclosed that I was going to be in the city on a mission trip.
He called me back in 3 hours asking for my availability.
The next day, he gave me a job and told me I would be in the office, not in the yard.
So, I started work the first Monday we were here.
I started with answering phone calls, transferring phone calls, cleaning the show room, organizing mark's office and taking sod orders.
Soon enough, I was working the sales desk and getting to know my way around the company and how it works.
You may have read my post about my first experience at the sales desk.
Anyhow, I have now been here for almost a month.
And God has a funny way of showing us why He has placed us where He has and what we are supposed to do for Him.
So, recently I have been rather bitter about the number of hours I have been working.
I just felt really tired all the time, and I felt like I was missing out on project, like group dates, outings, baking cookies, etc.
I was just in a funk about why I was at Lake Street in the first place.
I barely know anything about landscaping.
I am only here for the summer.
I was doing random, seemingly pointless jobs.
I just felt inadequate. I felt like I didn't belong here and I felt like I was just wasting everyone's time and money.
Well, when we do things for God's kingdom, satan likes to feed us lies. That is exactly what he was doing.
Telling me I had no purpose here, that I was not worthy of being here and that I didn't belong here.
Lies. Plain and simple.
BUT, God is good.
Today, is the start of a new week, yet I was still believing the same lies.
Until I prayed that God would tell me why I am here, why I am at Lake Street.
And it happened.
Bubba, one of the younger yard boys, came in to the kitchen where I was cleaning.
he mentioned that Joel, another guy from project who works in the yard, was talking to him about why we are here.
So I started to tell him why we were here and I asked him what he believed and why, then I got to share how Christ changed my life and what I believed to be true of God.
That is why I am here.
Period.
I am here to bring glory to God and to share His Gospel.
Isaiah 43:7
I am here to bring God glory.
I prayed this prayer this morning and the Lord showed me literally minutes later.

Wow.

Psalm 73:2-5
"But I nearly missed it, missed seeing His goodness. I was looking the other way, looking up to the people. At the top, envying the wicked who have it made, who have nothing to worry about, not a care in the whole wide world"
Vs 17
"...Until I entered the sanctuary of God. Then I saw the whole picture..."
Vs 21-24
"When I was beleaguered and bitter, totally consumed by envy, I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox in Your very presence. I'm still in Your presence, but You've taken my hand. You wisely and tenderly lead me, and then you bless me."

You bless me Lord, You bless me even when I don't see it, You bless me.
See it doesn't matter if I am cleaning out the freezer, or sweeping the floor or helping customers, I am here to serve God and bring Him glory.
I am here for Him.