Week 5

So I am sure you have all heard the phrase, "the Lord works in strange ways," right?!
Well sometimes those strange ways just make absolutely NO SENSE!
I'll explain.
Before coming to Chicago I had some expectations of what the Lord would do in my life, how He would change certain habits, expose some faults and sin and ultimately help me to grow in my relationship with Him and walk more closely with Him. I was also warned that the Lord may bring something up in my heart that come out of left field, things I had no clue I struggled with or needed to confront or needed to deal with. BINGO! Hey there left field how are you?!
I had an idea that this trip would be challenging but I had no clue how challenging it would be and lately it has been extremely challenging to the point of not understanding what the Lord is doing or why. And that is SO SCARY! The point of this trip was to share the Gospel with those who don't know the Lord and grow closer to Christ, not to be confused by what He is doing and who He is.
But lately, following some hard changes on project, I was left with confusion, complete confusion on what the Lord was doing, why He was doing it and what it all meant. And to be honest, I am still left in confusion at least slight confusion. I don't know why the Lord is doing what He is doing, but I do one thing: No matter what circumstances I face or what I feel, God is in COMPLETE CONTROL.
So, although my future seems a little foggy at the moment and I am unclear as to why i am struggling with certain things and why the Lord is choosing to do certain things, I know that He gives us visions and He turns them into realities. What in the world does that mean?! That means that in His timing for His purpose for OUR good! That's cool, but extremely difficult to wrap my head around.
I wish I could be more clear about what is going on, but honestly I'm confused, I don't know what is going on nor do I know what will come from it and where all of this will lead me. That is not up to me, I have no control of where I go, where I end up or what I end up doing, again, God does everything in His timing for His purpose for our good and that is all I need to know at this point and that is something I can hold onto because I know it is truth.
Sometimes the Lord works in strange ways, and I don't understand those ways sometimes, but I can rest in the fact that God does all things in His timing for His purpose for our good.
So whatever He is doing will be for my good, I just have to be patient in waiting for His will to unfold.
I know that this is confusing, it confuses me!
But again it is all for God's purpose, HE IS IN COMPLETE CONTROL and that is not confusing at all.
So I can praise the Lord for that clarity!
Praise Him!